Religion & God

I used to be religious, the kind of person who will abide by all the rules blindly. But now, I have changed. I want to become a person who loves God,not scared of the punishment that is ahead of me if I committed sins. That's not the kind of religion that I want to bestow upon my children if I happened to have them in future. How can you beat someone and asked them to pray? In my opinion, prayers should come from the heart, not  something that's resulted out of  fear of punishment.

I am not an atheist. I do pray whenever I feel like doing so. But I don't ask anything from Him because if God wants to fulfill my wishes, He needs to revamp the whole structure and rules that He has created so far, and that means too much of work and constrains. 

As much as I think that religion is one of the elements that causes rift and makes us divided between each other, I also believe that something powerful exist which created the universe in such a perfect balance. The existence of space and  stars are not possible without the presence of its creator. Meanwhile religion is man made, causes war between us and makes one believe that one is superior that the other. That is certainly not the way to reach God.