Have you experienced a book hangover? You felt as if you cant put your mind off from the characters of the books that you were reading. I had that many times especially after reading a good book. I was sleepless for nights after reading Sold. I dwell in the world of Thousand Splendid Suns for days, refusing not to think of the ill fate that befalls Mariam and Laila. I debated within myself for hours about how the author could have make it more of a happy story rather than drenching the eyes of the readers or maybe the characters are comfortable with the fate that the author has decided for them. I missed the bus while reading The Kite runner and went home late few years ago. I missed reading Audrey Niffenegger's words in The time traveler's wife because the book was just so beautifully written that I find it hard to part away from the words. I was so depressed after reading Orhan Pamuk's Museum of Innocence and decided not to finish the book because Kemal made me so angry and I don't want to have anything to do with him anymore.
I have just finished reading The Fault in Our Stars and I couldn't move on to another book. I find myself mourning the death of Augustus Waters (Spoilers Alert) and contemplating on how Hazel is going to move on with her life after this because when you lose something as precious as Augustus, one will be lost and of course he has taken a part of her when he left.
You see, all these characters are fictitious, they don't exist and some of them are so beyond ordinary that you cant find the common traits among your neighbors or colleagues. How do you deal with book hangover? How do you move on to flip the pages of a different book when your favorite characters are dead. Suddenly the story comes to an end,leaving you alone in a world that nobody understands you. You tell people around about him and her and they don't seem to get it and continue to carry on with their own work. The world is moving on and you see yourself stuck at the end of the page and you doesn't know what to do with your life anymore.
Here I am..sitting in a cold office at 12:22 am and wondering how do I move on without these characters and thinking on how to not get attached to anything in life be it fictitious or real because attachment hurts. And everyone you loved and loved you will eventually go on leaving you alone because they have to start their journey somewhere else,
Maybe the characters will be alive in someone else mind tonight,or so I hope. I wish they find solace and be welcomed in someone else thoughts and arms as how they were treated in mine.
