Now and Then

I adore those who can write flawlessly, the way they line up words in sentences, creating a perfect harmony and mesmerizes anyone who reads them.

Words are beautiful, and to be able express oneself with words is definitely a gift that not everyone could own.
I love writing but for the past six months, words are hard to come by.

A lack of confidence I would say, but at the same time I do realize it could be because of the job I'm having right now. There's a reason why I'm still clinging on to the current job apart from the fact that it paid off my bills.

There's a lot of things happening in my life, some are very bad and some are very good. Life has its own share of ups and downs but then don't ever let your guards down. I have been hiding a lot of things from my parents and friends which I don't really like doing, but then it seems like nobody understand or even try to understand my point when I share
All their arguments seems to be based on religion and little on humanistic approach. It's really hard unless one day God himself can come down from wherever He is and explain to them about my feelings.
So that's why I have completely stop mingling around anyone these days and the sad part is I have stopped blogging altogether. From this post, you guys should have hinted how scattered my mind is right now but all I wanted to do is to start writing again.

It's here again...........

Love. It had come again but this time it’s not just ringing the doorbell. Its taking a whole new approach it’s banging on my door pathetically, begging me to open the door just this time. As a matter of precaution, I have double locked the door, closed the windows, make sure its air tight and the curtains were down too. I could feel a sense of accomplishment and assurance after I made the house looked almost abandoned and with lights off it should provide a clear signal that the occupant doesn’t want to be disturbed at all. I had even asked the newspaper boy to stop dropping by because his presence might provoke suspicions about my existence.

I’m not letting it to drop by again. I could never forget the way it messed up my home last time, it robbed everything that I had and leaves me dumb and quiet for several days. It caused a twist to my personality and I’m not comfortable with changes. The banging is getting stronger and I’m just going to ignore the calls as I wear my earphones and indulge myself in music. With the blankets on, I assured myself that I’m going to have a good night sleep today.

But to be honest a tiny portion of my heart just wanted to open the door again and let the air filled with love to blew me away from here…

where I just wanted to be that dumb and quiet girl again..

who was helplessly lost in the world of love..

I wish it’s gone and at the same time I wish it stays a little longer this time..maybe I will open the door again or maybe not…

When the future scares you,

Come back to me, to your past

where I’ll be waiting for you

with my both arms open…
you know very well,that you have a place to return :)

P.S: the knocking is still there …getting louder each night!!..shall I open it or just get back to the music..?

Yes LIFe is Unfair but You can always be Fair :)

When everything doesn't happen the way that you wanted,just lie down on your bed ,close your eyes and listen to some beautiful musics,it might not give a long term solution but it will give you a good night sleep.

When you wake up in the morning and feeling restless, just put your chin up and remember today might be the last day you live, so embrace the day with a smile.

When you feel like darkness is all you have around you, remember that you can always stand up and walk to the corner of your room to switch on the light.

When a friend kept on hurting you with his/her words, remember no one's perfect,at times you had been a jerk too.

When all the money in the pocket runs out remember God created you and eventually He will lead you to your way. 

When you feel as though life’s being unfair,remember of all the little moments that counts,it will make up for all your loss and you’ll realise happiness is just the way you put up.

When a loved one walks away from your life,remember to turn behind to look at those people who were waiting for your love all this while. As much as its important to look forward,sometimes you have to look backwards too..

When the path that you're taking gets longer and lonelier, remember to hum to your favorite song and let your own voice to accompany you..and you'll realize there's no better companion than you yourself..

When life gives you a thousand reason to cry,show life a thousand ways of how you survived!!!!