Showing posts with label sad. Show all posts
Showing posts with label sad. Show all posts

Monday, October 21, 2013

Updates

I have grown bored of watching movies during night shift. The thought of bringing a book to work always slipped from my mind. I'm not complaining,working night shift is kinda cool because the working days are shorter. Four days in the first week and three days in the second week,so out of  10 working days you only work for 7 days. The actual problem starts after your night shift ends, the way you adapt  to the normal shifts and going back to the usual hectic and chaos of the day shifts. It's quite crucial to say the least.

Surprisingly my work life is getting better these days. I'm one of the top three agents in my department for this quarter.Maybe I'm speaking too soon but it makes me really happy as all my hard work getting paid well. And customers are sending compliment letters to my manager. I'm glad that I didn't disappoint him as I respect my manager very much. RJ promised me that for each compliment letter,I will get a piece of cake as a treat from him. He joked that he might need to buy a whole cake for me very soon. 

At least one part of my life is going good even though I cried on my office desk yesterday night.I hope nobody heard me as it will be quite embarrassing for me if anyone notice that.  It's getting harder to keep fighting for something. Sometimes I get too tired and I just want to lie on bed and give up on the world. But every time I almost drown,someone always come and pick me up,whisper encouraging words and remind  me that every problem have a solution. It's up to us to find our own way.

I find my whole life is a joke but when I look at those  having a shittier life than mine,I think I have a lot of things to be grateful for. Maybe the universe should stop competing with me over something that I wanted the most.

By the way, RJ came out with a premonition/theory that someday the world will come to an end and this catastrophe might be caused by water because over 70 % of the Earth's surface is covered by water. 

I guess its time to learn swimming...

Friday, April 22, 2011

TIRED and SAD!!!!

                                                                                                                                                                                              

I am feeling very very down for the past few weeks,It's like I've been running out of luck!!!
All the things I did and said ends up in a wrong way!!The exams does'nt go well either and I felt all my hardwork in vain.The lecturers are messing up with my dissertation and I am getting in trouble for the things that I have not done.Others are taking credits for my work and so on..life is so unfair.I m losing myself l..and I hate myself for being like this.

They optimist said.... life does not deserve sadness,and life is too short and you should be happy always happy and etc etc ....

But it is a lot easier said that done!!!!

Really tired and frustrated with people and life!!