Prompt No 10:A letter to your 16 year old self. What advice would you give?

Dear me,

What advise do I give to you,my16 years old self. Well I think it should be the other way around.The problem in writing this letter is I find it extremely difficult to offer advice to you because I guess I'm way better before than now. I wish I could go back to the past and steal away the younger 'me'.I might not be the best person to offer a lecture on how to live your life because there is no right way to live this life. At least let me give a shot...

Maybe one thing that annoyed me the most about you is the way you are so obsessed with what others are thinking about you,especially when it comes to your physical looks. You want to look more like the 'Others', those girls who believe having perfect waist leads to perfect boyfriends. Believe me,after all these years,I came to realize that things dont work that way.Maybe you might think that I'm trying to poke a hole on your bubbles of fantasy. Someday you'll realize that perfect guys dont exist but there's always one guy that will see you beyond your flaws and love you anyway. You dont have to trim your waist line to woo this guy,you just have to love him more and there's nothing else that he will ask you for.

You know when you are given the rights to advice someone else,you will suddenly realize that you just have a lot of wisdom to give away.So buckle up the seat belt and prepare to read my 'naggings'. Lucky you this is just a letter not a voice recording.Sometimes getting good grades is not everything in life. Its okay to fail and you dont have to cry a bucket for this and its okay to be friends with those who are not as smart as you. Mind you girl,we are all gifted in different ways. Some of your friends might not hit the class topper list but you never know they might be more successful than you in the future. Please let yourself to celebrate each others difference and use this time of your life to do things that makes you happy rather than feeding to the needs of the society. The world have enough of doctors and lawyers already.

Just a soft reminder sweetie,dont be scared of the future.Some days are bright and some days will be dark. At times,you might be feeling lost in the jungle without knowing if there's any path to follow but there's always some bread crumbs that will lead you to the right way. You might have to make hard decisions in life. Some incidents might shake your faith and make you to stop believing in dreams. You see, life is not that miserable as long you have a friend that you can call anytime, as long as you have your mommy dearie to make the best food in the world and as long as you have your loved ones waiting at the door step with ice creams after a hard day at work,everything should be fine. 

Its time to find your own self,go out there and make a difference..

Remember I will love you always for who you are..

Good night,sleep tight..<3

A note from Myself to Me

Dear me,

I know you are not being in your best mood lately. Things going haywire and depression is a word that you are living right now. I knew the other day when you were coming back home from work at night, you could easily merge into some unknown road and never return home ever, but you did come back because this is the place that you always belong. Life is not a bed of roses, this is for sure.

Indeed, there will be a lot of stones and hurdles along the way, and so its time for you to kick away those stones aside and jump over the hurdles when you travel this journey called life. I agree that the world outside is not that as innocent as you have thought, so it’s okay to be selfish at times but never lose your dignity along the way. Things changed, people changed and you have to accommodate yourself with the changes because this time the change is certainly for your own good.

And there’s always a reason why certain people enter your life just to walk away after a while. Every bit of their memories hurt but always remember to hold tight to those happier moments because life gives you the fair amount of joy and pain. Life balances up itself that way. But it’s good because for every wrong person that comes into your life, they certainly left a lesson or two to bring home the end of the day.It may look so over the edge now,but I assure you,when you look back one day,all these moments will bring you tons of smiles and remind you how far you had travelled so far.

Deep down,I believe the spark is always there. Its just that you have cocooned yourself in a bubble.Let yourself go,let go the fear that is eating you up. You can always be the person that you want to be.Its all in the mind,unlock your true potential as I always believe that you are indeed someone special. The greatest fear is your own self,and when you learn to overcome it,I bet the world that nothing can ever stop you again. Speak up for yourself because no one else will do it for you. Remember you make choices not choices make you.

And I have all the faith in you because when you gaze upon the sky,you know that all the angels are busy conspiring with nature to bring you nothing but pure happiness. You have to give TIME some time. Be patience,I heard them saying. We cant be sure of what will happen the next second because life is certainly short but I will never let my hands off you.I'll be there within your reach and I'm someone you can always count on. No one knows you better than me myself.Till then keep smiling because that is the best dress you can wear for your face.

Sleep tight honey. Rest all your problems under the bed. Wake up to a new morning tomorrow.Its time to stop running and pause for a while to smell the roses.

From

Myself

P.S: Sometimes you just have to have hear it from your own self  :)

Love,as I know it

Perhaps, the greatest joy in life is to be in love and to be loved. In my case I never had a chance to have it both. When I’m in love, I can’t be loved and when I’m being loved, I just can’t be in love. Nevertheless, love knocks many times in my life. Sometimes, it comes through the main door and no doubt I welcomed it with an ear to ear smile. At times, it sneaks in through the back door, giving me a nightmare and trouble my sleep but most of the time love prefers to peek me from outside my window and left as soon as it hears me saying ‘Better luck next time’. Some say it could be lust,some blame it on infatuation and all of its kind, but then what does real love means? Waiting for him to respond for 10 years and still hoping that he will one day? I’ll rather call it optimism than to give it the love badge. Or is it like the one depicted in movies where the hero smack the villain’s head and finally wins out the dream girl of the town? I’ll call it something else. Or it just the testosterone and estrogen playing hide and seek as claimed by the bald professor guy next to me? I have come to a point that I don’t know what love means anymore and to be exact I’m not really sure whether true love still exist or not. But its just too obvious that right now there’s a bunch of Indian mothers sitting cross legged, staring at their finger nails and telling me ‘Let us handle your love story honey, you just have to pick up your wedding gown. Everything else assured’. That freaks me out, but for now let the ‘DO NOT DISTURB’ sign hang on my doorknob a little longer, yeah a little longer.

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How is it feels to be forgotten? When someone decides to tear your page off from their book called memory? When all you can do is watching them in horror as they crumble your page and threw it over the roof. You stood there,motionless,wondering what went wrong that makes it painful for them to even remember you . It seemed that deleting you from their life is the best thing that they could do for themselves.I guess it hurts especially when we're left without a reason. Aren't we all deserve an explanation? On the contrary,what if someone forgets you unintentionally? Like Anita suddenly becomes the vague image of a girl who wore big glasses during high school. That's it! You no longer have a name,all you have now is a girl with big glasses. Eventually one day,without doubt Anita will soon be forgotten,no more big glasses,she will just be the invisible girl behind the class that nobody knows.I don't know which one hurts more,forgotten by someone intentionally or unintentionally.Maybe it's all depends on the person who forgets you but I know a thing for sure that I died a little when someone forgets me,I die again and again when someone kills me in their memory. Here I am with a warm coffee on the table and hands on my chin wondering how many people had killed me in their memories and how many people that I had killed so far?All I'm asking is forget me not. Will you do that for me?

I want that smile again!

                                                     
                                                            Say cheese and smile!!!!


No matter how much I tried,I always have something to complaint about,maybe its due to human nature to brood about their almost-not-so-perfect life. So here I am as usual having some conversation with some friends on how life after graduation seems like a living hell. The conversation ranges from  our childhood moment where we were reminded to study hard so that one day all our effort will be paid off. [yeah fuck those idiots who told us all that crap]..and we also complained about the way we ended up in something that is not related to our course,and yeah in the middle of convesation we did talk about guys,engagement and marriage and also about finding the non-existence Mr perfect too.

While we were happily complaining about our not-so-contended life,suddenly my eyes shifted to a lilttle boy,I guess he could be 8 something and he was on a wheel-chair accompanied by his mother.His left leg was amputated and his left arm is bandaged, I dont have to make any guesses.its so obvious that he went through a major accident in life and it cost him his left leg and i have no idea what gonna happen to his bandaged arm. What amazed was the smile on his face,not just a usual smile...the kind of smile that reaches the eyes,the kind of smile that gives instant spark not only to the owner of the smile but to everyone that receives the smile as well..GOSH..that smile moved me really..he was the happiest boy in the world while other kids wailing for toys, this boy seemed so happy on his wheelchair.

Then I told my friend,Look at him..he has nothing to be worried about,look at the way he's living at the moment..My friend who is a nurse answered ' he doesnt know yet what it actually means by not having a leg..He doesnt know yet..how life will be changing his smile soon..he doesn't know yet that growing up without a leg will be painful and life is not a bed of roses..and I paused for a moment yes she was right..damn right,,he doesnt know yet!!! and she's a nurse..she knows how painful the battle between life and death could be..

Yeah we never know what could happen in the next moment but there's something to pay attention here,what happened to our inner child as we grow up? what happened to all the 'ignorance' and 'smile' that we used to have while playing hide and seek in the park? what happened to the innocent us that's breaks the biscuit into two so that the liitle boy next to us could have his lunch as well.

What happened to those moment that we used to smile from heart and reaches our eyes? Yes life could be harsh at times,it could give us a twist and misplaced everything in just a second..but there's always hope,there's always a better tomorrow..Maybe.


I don't know what will happen to that radiant looking little boy,I hope LIFE will treat him well..I hope he won't give up that smile ever,because his smile brings smiles to me..
and I love anyone that can make me smile :)


So don't forget to smile with all your heart,its the best make up for your face and yes smiles and hugs,they always return :)


Everything is just fine till the time you can feel your heartbeat. and you say 1,2,3 and SMILE ... 
[Courtesy : Suvaiba]


And Im giving out Crystal's updated version of Hugs *rib-breaking, bone-crushing super tight bear hug* to all my lovely readers..


P.S: These two friends are making me smile with their sweetness 
P.P.S :Nowadays, I'm seeing a lot of guys holding hands together..owh GOSH..this GAY phenomena is freaking me out .. =O
P.P.P.S : My mother has no idea about the three books that i bought today..SHHHHhhh..she'll be mad at me if she finds out soon :| so keep the secret ya!! <3