A note from Myself to Me

Dear me,

I know you are not being in your best mood lately. Things going haywire and depression is a word that you are living right now. I knew the other day when you were coming back home from work at night, you could easily merge into some unknown road and never return home ever, but you did come back because this is the place that you always belong. Life is not a bed of roses, this is for sure.

Indeed, there will be a lot of stones and hurdles along the way, and so its time for you to kick away those stones aside and jump over the hurdles when you travel this journey called life. I agree that the world outside is not that as innocent as you have thought, so it’s okay to be selfish at times but never lose your dignity along the way. Things changed, people changed and you have to accommodate yourself with the changes because this time the change is certainly for your own good.

And there’s always a reason why certain people enter your life just to walk away after a while. Every bit of their memories hurt but always remember to hold tight to those happier moments because life gives you the fair amount of joy and pain. Life balances up itself that way. But it’s good because for every wrong person that comes into your life, they certainly left a lesson or two to bring home the end of the day.It may look so over the edge now,but I assure you,when you look back one day,all these moments will bring you tons of smiles and remind you how far you had travelled so far.

Deep down,I believe the spark is always there. Its just that you have cocooned yourself in a bubble.Let yourself go,let go the fear that is eating you up. You can always be the person that you want to be.Its all in the mind,unlock your true potential as I always believe that you are indeed someone special. The greatest fear is your own self,and when you learn to overcome it,I bet the world that nothing can ever stop you again. Speak up for yourself because no one else will do it for you. Remember you make choices not choices make you.

And I have all the faith in you because when you gaze upon the sky,you know that all the angels are busy conspiring with nature to bring you nothing but pure happiness. You have to give TIME some time. Be patience,I heard them saying. We cant be sure of what will happen the next second because life is certainly short but I will never let my hands off you.I'll be there within your reach and I'm someone you can always count on. No one knows you better than me myself.Till then keep smiling because that is the best dress you can wear for your face.

Sleep tight honey. Rest all your problems under the bed. Wake up to a new morning tomorrow.Its time to stop running and pause for a while to smell the roses.

From

Myself

P.S: Sometimes you just have to have hear it from your own self  :)

I want that smile again!

                                                     
                                                            Say cheese and smile!!!!


No matter how much I tried,I always have something to complaint about,maybe its due to human nature to brood about their almost-not-so-perfect life. So here I am as usual having some conversation with some friends on how life after graduation seems like a living hell. The conversation ranges from  our childhood moment where we were reminded to study hard so that one day all our effort will be paid off. [yeah fuck those idiots who told us all that crap]..and we also complained about the way we ended up in something that is not related to our course,and yeah in the middle of convesation we did talk about guys,engagement and marriage and also about finding the non-existence Mr perfect too.

While we were happily complaining about our not-so-contended life,suddenly my eyes shifted to a lilttle boy,I guess he could be 8 something and he was on a wheel-chair accompanied by his mother.His left leg was amputated and his left arm is bandaged, I dont have to make any guesses.its so obvious that he went through a major accident in life and it cost him his left leg and i have no idea what gonna happen to his bandaged arm. What amazed was the smile on his face,not just a usual smile...the kind of smile that reaches the eyes,the kind of smile that gives instant spark not only to the owner of the smile but to everyone that receives the smile as well..GOSH..that smile moved me really..he was the happiest boy in the world while other kids wailing for toys, this boy seemed so happy on his wheelchair.

Then I told my friend,Look at him..he has nothing to be worried about,look at the way he's living at the moment..My friend who is a nurse answered ' he doesnt know yet what it actually means by not having a leg..He doesnt know yet..how life will be changing his smile soon..he doesn't know yet that growing up without a leg will be painful and life is not a bed of roses..and I paused for a moment yes she was right..damn right,,he doesnt know yet!!! and she's a nurse..she knows how painful the battle between life and death could be..

Yeah we never know what could happen in the next moment but there's something to pay attention here,what happened to our inner child as we grow up? what happened to all the 'ignorance' and 'smile' that we used to have while playing hide and seek in the park? what happened to the innocent us that's breaks the biscuit into two so that the liitle boy next to us could have his lunch as well.

What happened to those moment that we used to smile from heart and reaches our eyes? Yes life could be harsh at times,it could give us a twist and misplaced everything in just a second..but there's always hope,there's always a better tomorrow..Maybe.


I don't know what will happen to that radiant looking little boy,I hope LIFE will treat him well..I hope he won't give up that smile ever,because his smile brings smiles to me..
and I love anyone that can make me smile :)


So don't forget to smile with all your heart,its the best make up for your face and yes smiles and hugs,they always return :)


Everything is just fine till the time you can feel your heartbeat. and you say 1,2,3 and SMILE ... 
[Courtesy : Suvaiba]


And Im giving out Crystal's updated version of Hugs *rib-breaking, bone-crushing super tight bear hug* to all my lovely readers..


P.S: These two friends are making me smile with their sweetness 
P.P.S :Nowadays, I'm seeing a lot of guys holding hands together..owh GOSH..this GAY phenomena is freaking me out .. =O
P.P.P.S : My mother has no idea about the three books that i bought today..SHHHHhhh..she'll be mad at me if she finds out soon :| so keep the secret ya!! <3

A smile that last forever...

I still remember the first day I saw her,her smile caught me first and then followed by her friendly gestures and her long glowing  hair. She was beautiful.I was 13 years old that time and she was my friend's sister.She came along with her mother to pick up my friend from school and by the way she smiled at me,i knew instantly she's a very warm person.Indeed that was the first and the last time I saw her in real, yes I just received the news that she had passed away recently together with her unborn child. Well.i have completely lost touch with my friend, not even in Facebook. I got to know this news from a friend and i felt that the news of her death somehow affected me in way, in a way that it brings some moments back into my life!


I knew the pain of losing someone unexpectedly where God doesn't even give a clue that the person will not be with us anymore. Coming this October, it had been two years that God took him from our life. Yes he was my cousin bro,whom I was closer to  more than my real brothers. Due to some misunderstanding we were not in talking terms for a while. I was rude to him,yes sometimes I just take things personally,the bad side of me.But i have no idea that this is how it will end,it ends without a closure,without a proper Goodbye he got involved in an accident and he passed away on the spot.I thought of calling him once I got dean-listed,too bad I was dean-listed when he's no more to hear the good news.


It rained heavily the day he passed away and it still rains today .....
I was really angry with God that moment,why God has to take away him from us,he was the darling of the family everyone adores him and he was taken care like an angel by all of us. and I am very sure that my friend's sister was an angel to her family as well. Why does all the good people had to leave so early? Why does God have to take someone who is close to us just to keep them closer to him? It's a bit unfair but I do know everything happens for a reason, a reason that we'll only realize when they are gone!There is no word that could heal the wound,or maybe time have a better way to do that...


Lesson learned the hard way,appreaciate everyone and hate no one.life is too short to live in regrets and some people doesn't have a whole life to live,they might have to leave soon,it could be tomorrow or even the next second.


Hence,cherish each and everyone in your life,forgive quickly and love dearly:) Death takes away life but not memories,it stays on reminding us that these people are not that faraway from us, they are just here,watching every movement of yours,silently whispering...Don't worry,I'm closer to God..I'll take care of everything :)


To him and her,thank you for touching my life,your smiles will be alive in my memory!!


P.S: I wish I could turn back the clock and make things right,but sometimes life couldn't afford to give you another chance :)

Smile

Let your smile be contagious,spread the happiness around you.

You don't lose a single thing,who knows someone might just fall in love with your smile today.