I have been dealing with minor anxiety since morning. My thoughts run deep and wild, causing the slurring on my words. The whole day felt like a huge burden, hunching my back thus aching my whole body. RJ has fallen sick with flu. vomit and fever. Even to an extent of asking me to convey message to his mother saying he loves her despite everything that happened in the past. I couldn't ignore it for one of his jokes. He insist me not to come to visit him, for the fear of contagious. Besides, I was stuck in a vast, air conditioned office with my endless work which of course continued to taunt me and makes me feel as if I have sold my soul in return of financial stability.
Have you ever felt this way in your life?
Have you ever felt so helpless when one of your loved ones fall sick and you cant do anything about it?
Why do I always kept imagining all the worst case scenario?
Perhaps, it was fear of losing all I ever had that's making me so restless in this cold night.
I have stopped praying since long time ago and now I don't know what else to do.