I don’t believe in praying to make things happen. I have passed that stage of innocence for whatever it's worth.
Because I always have this feeling that God is against me, the universe can’t wait to see me fall. I don’t know how one live when they have trust issues with the world. Instead of hoping for miracles, I find out ways to make things work.
The only good thing coming out from this ordeal is that it makes me stronger, makes me a hardcore, if I give up, I will fall right into the pit hole. I think that is what brought us this far. What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.
On a sunny November day, we stood in front of the Justice of Peace and read our vows, and I guess that was the best decision we have made so far.