Saturday, August 2, 2014

Life behind the scale

I have been trying to finish up reading 'The God of Small things for more than one month now. No, there's nothing wrong with the story line or what's so ever. In order to indulge in the pleasure of reading a book,you need three things. First, a complete peace of mind for you to taste each words without actually uttering a word and also to imagine the scenes between the pages. Second, Silence. Having a one year old adorable yet noisy nephew around certainly pulls out the concentrations cell from your brain. Third, ample of free time .Currently, I'm struggling to find all these three things,

Nowadays, I'm not even aware how time flies. I am out of the house most of the time for one reason that I hate to be at home,just to be surrounded  by people who doesn't acknowledge my RJ. They don't even want to get to know him,that's what saddens me the most. What is wrong with him? Isn't he a human being like all of us who breathe the same air as everyone else? Why are they not including him in our family? It's not his fault to be born as someone with a different religion than them.

So where is God here? Can I go back to God who created these rules in the first place? Will God acknowledge my prayers? 

I find it hard to go along living in the same house with people who kneel down on prayer mat,praying so that RJ will leave me eventually..

To be completely honest, I find all this discrimination to be absolutely and utterly disgusting..




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  1. A. You are going through a tough patch. There is a wonderful Sinatra song... I did it my way. Google it my dear. Peace will come to you... Eventually. Take care.

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    1. Thanks Rajesh for your kind words. Yes, I listened to the song and it was beautiful :) I will do things my way because that's what who I am..

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  2. You are right about the three things. Compulsory.
    About RJ, don't worry. If he's made for you no prayers can take him away from you :)
    Cheers

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    1. Thanks dear for your comment.. I just wish no one will try to separate us.

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  3. You're right, it is sad that they won't give RJ a chance. And yes, he's a human being who breathes, has a beating heart, has feelings, just like everyone else...

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    1. Thanks Keith.. Sometimes I really don't understand why people love to label themselves :(

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  4. I know how you feel about God, I kind of feel the same way but for entirely different reasons.
    And I'm going crazy for books these days, I have even read the lame ones like fifty shades of grey (please don't judge me :p ) For me, a bit of a silence works and yes of course you need time to read books but I usually have that.

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    1. I'm trying not to lose faith in God but circumstances always fails me.. And yes books are dearest companions.. Just wish I have more time and peace of mind

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  5. So much of the shit in this world is made up by religions. I don't believe in anything anymore.

    /Avy

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    1. Sigh. I wish the world will give us a chance to be happy

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  6. at some point, your mother will have to accept him, or you'll have to throw away your mother's opinion to the garbage even though it may bring you some conflicts with her or separation... my mom's the same... she would barely accept my gay friends, she'd never accept me having a boyfriend from another religion nor race... she says it's because we are different and we are a different culture and we should stick to our own because we were brought up that way... but fuck it man.. we are all humans as you say... to me, she's way wrong... for her, I'm way wrong... what's "right" for me might not be what is "right" for others... it just happens, it's life... so stray true to what YOU believe in and live by that no matter what others think of you... what does your heart tell you?...
    anyway... about God mmm... sometimes I wonder if God created men because he was lonely or did men created God because he was the lonely one?.... I just try to do good things, be a good human, search for peace... without any dogma or religion ruling over me.
    good luck with this situation...

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    1. Oh dear, you said well and you are 200 percent right! I will my follow my heart and make the right decision when the time comes.. Thank you so much for your precious words :)

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  7. God didn't make up these rules, humans made it for their own benefit. I can relate to what you are going through. Be strong and decided on your stand in life. Everythign els will fall in place.

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    1. Yes dear that's right.. Human make these rules in the name of .. If by any chance God made these rules, I don't know what to say about God who separates people in the name of religion

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