Sometimes I feel he'd better off without me. At least he can start to plan a normal life with marriage and kids,with me everything just seems to be impossible. Religion is one part, family pride is another. I believe there's a reason why destiny brought us together. I just hope it will be for ever. I love him so much to see him with somebody else. I think I'm selfish to keep him for the sake of my own happiness. I'm someone who never give up but maybe I'm just holding his life from him. He deserves a better life than being with me.
It's a struggle but I'm wiling to fight till the end..