This is what happened when I pause writing for a while,I find it very hard to make a come back to the world of words. Maybe that's how my brain works. For example if I come back after a long holiday I will almost forget on how to do my office work. Somehow I would feel as though my brain has frozen and the words are struggling to find rhythm with my hands on the keyboard. (By the way,am I the only one who erases the whole sentence just because only one of the word has a typo error? )
I have taken up swimming lessons just for the fun of it. I almost drown so many times but M said I should set a reminder on my brain that I wont ever drown in a swimming pool and hat hopefully gives me more confidence. I want to be able to swim and I feel uttermost satisfaction and inner peace when I'm in the water. But to be honest,I'm quite disgusted when I overheard a mother who suggested her son to pee in the swimming pool when he had the urge to do so. To my surprise, the boy was matured enough not do so (or so I believe). Such is the condition of the world that I'm sharing with some people here.
Sometimes I feel as though I was dumped by a stork 25 years ago because I always find fault in whatever my family does for me or not allow me to do. I feel like I'm a teenage again where the whole world conspires to not letting me to live the way I want to. Maybe I'm just a late bloomer,everything happen quite late in my life.Few days ago I was sulking so badly that I asked my mother to sell away the cupboards,study tables and everything that she bought for me because I don't need those stuff.
I'm not complaining or stop counting my bliss,I'm just venting my heart out because it helps to put my thoughts in align with the normality of the world
On a brighter side, I have resorted to reading again to cure my depressed heart and yes, a lot of chocolates and tooth ache to suffer later as well.