Tuesday, September 13, 2011
A smile that last forever...
I still remember the first day I saw her,her smile caught me first and then followed by her friendly gestures and her long glowing hair. She was beautiful.I was 13 years old that time and she was my friend's sister.She came along with her mother to pick up my friend from school and by the way she smiled at me,i knew instantly she's a very warm person.Indeed that was the first and the last time I saw her in real, yes I just received the news that she had passed away recently together with her unborn child. Well.i have completely lost touch with my friend, not even in Facebook. I got to know this news from a friend and i felt that the news of her death somehow affected me in way, in a way that it brings some moments back into my life!
I knew the pain of losing someone unexpectedly where God doesn't even give a clue that the person will not be with us anymore. Coming this October, it had been two years that God took him from our life. Yes he was my cousin bro,whom I was closer to more than my real brothers. Due to some misunderstanding we were not in talking terms for a while. I was rude to him,yes sometimes I just take things personally,the bad side of me.But i have no idea that this is how it will end,it ends without a closure,without a proper Goodbye he got involved in an accident and he passed away on the spot.I thought of calling him once I got dean-listed,too bad I was dean-listed when he's no more to hear the good news.
It rained heavily the day he passed away and it still rains today .....
I was really angry with God that moment,why God has to take away him from us,he was the darling of the family everyone adores him and he was taken care like an angel by all of us. and I am very sure that my friend's sister was an angel to her family as well. Why does all the good people had to leave so early? Why does God have to take someone who is close to us just to keep them closer to him? It's a bit unfair but I do know everything happens for a reason, a reason that we'll only realize when they are gone!There is no word that could heal the wound,or maybe time have a better way to do that...
Lesson learned the hard way,appreaciate everyone and hate no one.life is too short to live in regrets and some people doesn't have a whole life to live,they might have to leave soon,it could be tomorrow or even the next second.
Hence,cherish each and everyone in your life,forgive quickly and love dearly:) Death takes away life but not memories,it stays on reminding us that these people are not that faraway from us, they are just here,watching every movement of yours,silently whispering...Don't worry,I'm closer to God..I'll take care of everything :)
To him and her,thank you for touching my life,your smiles will be alive in my memory!!
P.S: I wish I could turn back the clock and make things right,but sometimes life couldn't afford to give you another chance :)