I would say the most difficult decision is yet to come.I'm just delaying it :( I'm a coward and I just dont have the guts to make the decision.Whatever decision I make,I'm going to hurt people that I love. How I wish I can have it all. :( But God is making me to choose. He said I shouldnt marry someone who doesnt belong to the same religion as mine.
Sometimes I wonder if God exist what race He will choose to be in and which religion suits Him the best. Another thought came to my mind,if he choose one religion over another,is that mean He had to let go of others which are His own creations?. Nothing makes sense as I was taught God is loving and most benevolent.
Does God exist or not? I am more inclined to believe that He doesn't ..